Post-test and Pre-IV Anxiety

I've just finished my fourth week in the upper division. I've decided to pursue reflective journaling as suggested by my professors.

We got back our grades this week from our first test; I got an 88. As I consider anything below an A unacceptable, I was pretty disheartened. It seemed the majority of my peers made C's, though there was a guy claiming to not have studied at all who got a 94. /rolleyes

Granted, if I had put more effort in I know I could have gotten an A. I really didn't take it seriously enough and I recognize that. Still, I didn't really like some of the wording on the test. Some of it appeared intentionally confusing or just vague (e.g. the word "diagnosis" could have meant nursing or medical; the answer for the correct assessment of the abdomen was missing entirely).

I'll do better next time.

I am pretty anxious about next week in the skills lab. We were supposed to have started on IV insertion and CVL dressing changes this past week, but due to most of us not getting our skills bags in time, we will be doing that next week. I'm a bit petrified.

I'm having a hard time concentrating a lot of the time. I went to the library to study yesterday, and it helped a lot. Adderall helps with my ADD but the extreme hostility and irritability makes me apprehensive about taking it regularly. :/